May 22nd, 2025
Been raining for the past two days now, I feel like it gives me the blues. Still haven't be able to find work, feel lonely as shit, stuck indoors full of envy. It's really my past that affects me the most, the worry that no matter what I do people will always look down on me and try to hurt me. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of seeing privileged fucking people mistreat others who are going through it worse than they are, they can all go to fucking hell. I just want to die. I don't even wanna die, I just wanna have the bare minimum yet I have been fighting for such all my adult life. People who put me through hell get to still have plenty of money, plenty of people who truly do care about them, plenty of resources.

I'm lonely